...He found you lost and guided you (93:7)

Saturday, November 2, 2013

now

Imam Hasan Basri ketika ditanya mengenai rahsia zuhudnya:

"Aku tahu rezekiku tidak akan diambil orang lain, kerana itulah hati-ku selalu tenang..."

"Aku tahu amal perbuatanku tidak akan dapat ditunaikan orang lain, kerana itulah aku sibuk mengerjakn-nya..."

"Aku tahu Allah mengawasiku, kerana itulah aku selalu merasa malu apabila DIA melihatku dalam keadaan maksiat..."

"Aku tahu kematian itu sudah menungguku, kerana itulah aku selalu menambah bekal untuk pertemuanku dengan Allah…”


feel it,
immense every second of life
praying, worshiping Him

never underestimate the power of dua 
tawakkal is a magic
of a believer 
from the greatest Lover

hasbunallah wa nikmal wakeel

Friday, July 19, 2013

Pre NRIC 2013

29th-30th May 2013

It was 8.45 am. The judging session will begin soon by now as it was scheduled at 9.00 a.m. As soon as I reached dewan sultan mizan gaspingly, I began to arrange my props and membrane samples. It was kinda clumsy that morning as I walked with my fastest pace to the hall, with my formal cloth and shoes on.

That shoes..was the one and only formal shoes I have and had wore for most formal purposes for all this time. 

The same old classy one. So, it's kinda funny, and a bit scary when others wore the best, glaring, up to toe attire. I admitted, at first, seeing these people wearing smart clothes and bright colors does scare me as if there were spreading the aura of confidence & competitiveness. Anyhow, I feel  more comfortable and confident walking with my decent look.

To deal with my adrenaline for the upcoming presentation, I spent some time walking around the undergraduate exhibition booth while giving sholawat upon Prophet Muhammad (pbuh). Compared with the other participants, they were in the group of 3, but I was  all by myself. The nervousness I feel was pretty similar with the one I felt during my first individual presentation during my freshman year. But then I know, I cant let that feeling overtook me today. Allah has chosen me with the other 21 participants for Pre-NRIC competition was indeed a lucky shoot for me.This competition was held in conjunction to select 11 best projects to represent university for Novel Research Innovation Competition NRIC this August at USM.


Alhamdulillah.


After a series of screening session, I gained the trust of the panel to proceed my research project for this competition.

Now, it was the day. I have put my best during the screening, and so this time. It took me by surprised when I was done with my arrangement, one of the panel came by us and remind that the judging session shall begin now. I haven't do any recap on my presentation as I thought there will be some minutes left for a brief practise.

As third presenter, I manage to witnesses the way judges ( three of them) responded to the two group before me which is quite ok, I guess. I didnt' pay much attention on them as I'm much busy fighting against my nervousness. Now,my turn is up. For the first 4 minutes, as I was touching on my objective of studies, Dr. B came out with a query. It was surprisingly a fast reactive respond from her and flashforward I know how Q and A session would be afterwards. As expected, as soon as I end up my presentation,  Dr. B had shoot me with questions regarding my research. Her projecting voice attract attentions of the hall.

Your scope of study is too wide...



you can not compare an APPLE with an ORANGE. It incomparable!



your results is NOT RELIABLE! you can not analyze your results this way!


...

I was shaken,
nervous.

Luckily, Alhamdulillah, I manage to put myself together and answered every of her questions confidently. Until one point, that she refused to hear further explanation from me and stay rigid with her stance.

My eyes became teary and I was completely down for few minutes. As if everything I have done for my project throughout one year was worthless. People were staring at me, because of Dr.B's loud voice just now. But then when I think on the brightside, when Dr.B was arguing, querying me, she does pointed out my flaws and DID told me ways to correct them.

At least that effectively soothes me.

Next day, the results will be announced. I hope of nothing because by getting the chance to compete was more than enough for me. I have gained so much experience that taught me tremendous lesson up to this level. It's ok if I dont get the chance to represent my uni for NRIC, perhaps I can do something else while waiting for master admission or work (still in a pending status for these matters).

As the result was announced, it surprise me to hell when I received the Silver Award. The one and only recipient with no gold recipient was chosen for this year competition. Others gained Bronze Award. The award was given based on overall scores of presentation, data representation and also feasibility of the studies conducted. 

It was unexpected yet that was as fated by Allah the Exalted. Allah has substitute tears I shred previously to tears of joy. I now, brace myself for the upcoming NRIC with much more challenging environment, competitive and surely going to be more tougher as it will involve people from various area of industries.  Work to the fullest and always make dua to Allah because we will never know what lies on the other side of the of His wisdom.




Saturday, June 29, 2013

officially come to an END

Alhamdulillah a'la kullihal

I have finally ended my 1st degree study! 
Well actually, it had ended earlier, but since I was still messing around with my beloved thesis, 
I could'nt guarantee it further.
But fret not...
I'm at the pinnacle of my study now. InshaAllah 
Environmental technology degree holder to-be

To be specific, I have just laser printed my finalized thesis copy to proceed with binding.
Fuh, lega sebab kerja-kerja mengedit thesis ini..mencabar
Format banyak lari-lari

Managed to get through 

:)

It's over 
but I'm still here at UMT
AutoCAD Course - 30.6 - 17.7
NRIC (USM)       - 18.8 - 22.8



p.s : saya memang seorang yang "setia" sebab segala yang sudah berlaku tu yang Allah tunjukkan ialah perkara yang terbaik dalam hidup.

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Du'a List

Since Ramadan is just around the corner, I have decided to make a list of things to ask Allah (swt) so that I know what to make say when I sahur and  break fast and generally throughout my fasting days.InshaAllah And MOST important of all, so that I don't forget.inshaAllah. Incase if someone or stranger bumped/come across my mediocre blog, do supplicate for me as well. Or if I'm no longer here, someone out there will read the du'a for me.InshaAllah


My Dua List
Forgiveness for my major and minor sins.
Increase and strengthen my memory and faith
Bring me closer to Him and to the Ummah.
Grant me and my family a place in Jannah.
Protection from the Hellfire.
Protection from Syaitan and Syirik.
Grant me a righteous/loving Husband who will be good for my life, my religion, my hereafter
Guide my family,friends,lecturers,teachers. Show them the straight path.
Grant me good in this life and in the hereafter.
Bring the Ummah in unity.
Forgive our Brothers & Sisters in Islam and accept their Duas.
Make it easy for me to do world's tasks like Univeristy/work so that I can spend my time worshipping You.
Bless all the things that I choose to do in Your path and make it a success.
Grant me trustworthy/righteous female companions.
Preserve our teachers/Imams in Islam.
Answer the Duas of brothers and sisters at Syria, Rohingya, Palestin, Afganistan, Iraq and grant them the best in Jannah.
Protect me from all evil.
Protect my ears, eyes, nose and hands from evil.
Give me light, front, back, side, light.
Provide for me light in the Grave.
Allow me to die as a Muslim with La ilaha ilallah on my tongue just before my life is taken.
Bless those all around me, Bless all the Muslims I've spoken to in my life, Bless them with goodness.
Forgive us for all our shortcomings and insufficiencies in our good deeds..
Accept our prayers and disregard our mistakes and wrongdoings.
Rabbana wa taqabbal Du'a

...these are just a few, there's just so many things we need from Allah. The Dua list never ends.
Don't stop making Dua. Be CERTAIN that Allah will respond to every dua at the BEST TIME in the BEST WAY

 "Verily your Lord is Generous and Shy. If His servant raises his hands to Him (in supplication) He becomes shy to return them empty” (Ahmad)



~may We reach Ramadhan this year.amin ya Allah~

p.s : Nice talk by Mufti Menk on Supplication. Worth watching. MashaAllah.. membetulkan diri sendiri terutamanya utk bulan mulia ini. wallahua'lam


Monday, June 17, 2013

working sister

My sister had secure a job as an Assistant project manager in Sentul. That company was quite a distance away from our house at Keramat. So it makes me wonder on how does she go and return from work every day. In fact that for now, she doesn't have her driving licences yet ( well, that also includes me) plus, I understand that my Ayoh too wont be able to fetch her either. Hmm. not here in this dreadful weekdays jam in kl and Ayoh was from puterajaya then go to sentul. That will certainly be NO. Well, public transport sure seems to be an excellent alternative, but I know how hectic and pack the train is especially during peak hour. I have been experienced once during my foundation year as I used to go back home during weekends.

Out of my curiousity, we had a long conversation last night. She told me further about her daily route to work. From our house area, she took a rapid kl bus straight to setiawangsa lrt. Later, she transit from lrt to ktm at masjid jamek and went straight away to the last ktm route of sentul timur. To get to her company, she walked for another 15 minutes along a main road. The coolest thing is that, my sister even put on her sport shoes regardless of what attire she wear, in order to have comfort walk. I know that this wasn't a piece of cake to do but again, she knows that it is the sacrifice she made. Nowadays, job hunting is not really easy as it seems. To be offered with a job that suits our requirement is hard and to preserve it, is much tougher.

I was worried at the first place when she told me about that, but she convinced me that the main road was loaded with cars during the morning. In fact, to whom shall we put our whole dependency to?

we have Allah. 
As our saviour
As our protector
now and always

Somehow, as a weak minded servant, I could not avoid sympathy feelings I have towards my sister. Oh Allah. It's not like, I pampered my sister to have near job place,so that can come home early, as such. But I thought that the one that will be fetching her from lrt by 7 pm will be my Mok. I cant imagine how it will be for my Mok if in the future like four of us will be working around. Buying a so called anak-anak car is a solution, but not now when we have 4 of us still studying at higher institution. At least, when my sister build her career nearer, and she can use her first payment to buy herself a car, then she can explore working at some other place.

So again, with some reference from some friends, I helped her to take another round of job hunting within radius of wangsa maju and taman melawati. Alhamdulillah, out of four companies I found earlier, only one of the companies that doesn't have job vacancy.

InshaAllah, may Allah blessed our decision and helped us throughout the way. We work for it, so let Allah alone decide afterwards. 

Some calamity we faced is not as bad as we thought, sometimes Allah gave us as a present to always remember Him.

wallahua'lam

Monday, May 27, 2013

one day

saw this sort of picture
shared

full moon and Kaabah 
subhanaAllah
a perfect match







(pic credit : Yasmin Mogahed, Elies Elias)



One wish
One day
the One
will invite me there
longing for Umrah,Hajj
longing to be near with my beloved Prophet (PBUH)
Ya Mujib.Isjtab du'a ana



p/s: I even thought of that newbie, KAUST.if only you know what I mean.du'a list added.

Monday, May 6, 2013

GE 13

bismillahirrahmanirrahim dan Assalamualaikum 


Alhamdulillah 
tanah tumpah darahku
Kelantan 
masih lagi diizinkan Allah untuk merasa style kepimpinan ulama :)

Dan 

DUN kat rumah Hulu Kelang pun still kekal dibawah YB Shaari Sungib. Walaupun harus memilih antara dua tempat mengundi, Alhamdulillah glad, dua-dua masih kekal. Means, pesta ceramah agama masih lagi aktif kat kawasan rumah dan saya dapat bayangkan pasti semakin rancak menjelang Ramadhan ini :) dan yang paling penting juga, Masjid As-Sobirin masih lagi kekal dgn JK yang ermm yang sekepala la dengan fikrah saya sefamily.

muko oghe hok excited nok undi pertamo kali

This is my 1st time experience mengundi kat kampung Kelate untuk DUN Pasir Pekan, Parlimen Tumpat. Saya mengundi bukan sebab nak pastikan kemenangan sesebuah parti pilihan tetapi untuk melaksanakan tanggungjawab dalam memilih pemerintah. Its an obligation as highlighted in Quran also. So I'm done with my part. 


Alhamdulillah for everything ya Allah. 
InshaAllah. For everything that happened, is within Allah's will. :D He knows THE BEST~

 memang jarang sangat berpeluang menulis blog, jadi isu-isu panas #blackout #peti undi hilang #dakwat kekal tu saya malas nak ulas sebab semua tu memang da jadi mainstream kat fb. Cuma kita je kena pilih nak terus dikaburi atau nak buka mata luas-luas. We're grown up people, so please la put your thinking cap on. Think! analyze! and scrutinize! every info. Yang haq tetap akan menang!peace!

p.s: frust menonggeng jugak la bila Trgnu "keka" hehue

Monday, January 28, 2013

hold on

Bismillahirahmanirrahim & Assalamualaikum

2013
it's a brand new year :)
Some tears have shed for the past one year,
tears of happiness
tears of blessing
tears of dissapoinment
but in every tears,
I know Allah is near

for every path of life
lies a hikmah
hidden or vivid
there is something that Allah does
to nurture this soul,heart
for He that knows everything

and verily
with every adversity
lies a relief and opportunity
just remember one thing
stay steadfast and have  faith
in Allah

He might let you bend
but He wont let you break
and He surely will never leave
Sooner or later
He will answer your prayer...
just hold on
He is loving you
in the uniquest way


He misses me :(